Well this is it! It is race day. I have made it thru the first day without any real drama now it is time to leave it ALL on the track. I am full of nervousness!! I race at 7:45pm. It is 3:11pm and my heart is racing like I have already completed the warm-up. It is hard but I am trying to keep things in perspective. I cannot tell the future and as much as I like to be able to there is no need because we will all know the result in a few hours.These things I do know….

That for one to be the winner there has to be 7 other losers so one persons joy will inevitably result in many others pain. Life is about both joy and pain and when things don’t go the way you would like them to how you choose to deal with that is what becomes the most important next move. No one likes a sore loser and if takes far more character to hold your head up and conduct yourself in a manner that respectful of others despite how much pain you are in than to celebrate (I don’t know anyone who isn’t good at celebrating).

A loser is going to wonder why it seems they have done everything right and still come up short. They may even begin to believe that they are being punished for somehow not having done enough. This is a crucial moment when you either decide to wallow in self pity or keep on living because life is far from over.

My theme for this games is living. I am dedicating this performance to those who don’t have that privilege anymore mainly my God mother Dr. Sophie Womack who passed earlier this year suddenly. She crammed so much into her time here and I have her example to remind me that no matter how much you think you’re doing or hard you think your working there is always room for more. You only live once so don’t waste time pouting, complaining, whining or making excuses take advantage of each moment and focus on all things wonderful, pleasant and positive.

Tonight I am getting on that track knowing that I am capable of winning. But win lose or draw I am already at peace with myself. I know how far I have come. I know I am going to run my heart out so no matter what happens when I cross that line there is no reason to think the world is going to end. I may not be the happiest person in the stadium but I choose not to be the saddest either.

I have accepted that God has a plan for me and if getting across the finish line first is in it I will be overjoyed. If not, I will hold my head high be grateful for the experience of being here not once but twice in the same lifetime. If you are a fan of mine surely it isn’t just because I run fast. You know that I have some many other hopes dreams and desires that I am capable of great things. I am dedicated to education and helping others. I have far from reached my full potential in any area of life and will continue to grow with the help of those around me.

I know I have told you before but if you see me please don’t wish me luck. Luck is for those who have not prepared their going to need luck to be more successful than me I have worked too hard to depend on luck. I depend on GOD. Hard work and GOD is all I need so when it is time for my races make sure you say a prayer for me and I will be just fine.

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